How Dare you.

Who the hell do you think you are, you think u can just use people and play with their emotions. You think about no one but yourself you don't care about what people or whose feelings you might hurt in the process. We had something amazing you chose to throw it away for no reason and just run away like a scared baby and not even acknowledge my existence. Then when u finally answered me you said the most hurtful thing that anyone has ever said to me in my life. i cried for nights, I was more hurt than even the painful periods that i have already lived through. I felt a pain that i didn't know i could feel because of someone leaving you. Then when i finally accept the fact u are gone when i finally get over the pain when i basically have rid u from my life. You show back up and are filled with apologies and regrets and fill my head with all these things that i had just got rid of. I had to think to myself is this for real should i believe it should i even care should i give this person the time of day that hurt me so bad. But i took a step back and remembered how much i cared for u and my heart just said yes forgive him so i did and we had like 2 real nice convos after that and before u went to cali. Now here is the thing you told me u wanted what we had back even if it was little by little and i was so excited about that honestly. So you packed up and went to cali and even when there we talked a couple times and you still assured me that there could be an us and u wanted it. But how is it when u were so close u didn't bother to let me know till to late so that i could have figured out a way to meet u. I had no clue you would be so close and you didn't bother to let me know so that we could possibly meet that really would have made my world. But it was OK because i had u in my heart and had so much love for you. But then i read about this thing that happened you you couldn't let me know someone that you supposedly had feelings for but you found time for a random person you just met to not only talk to in Starbucks but to go for a walk and spend all this time with him then end up in the situation that u ended up in regardless of the final outcome it still hurt me bad after all the ground we gained if u cant see that then I'm sorry. But lately you are doing the same old thing i tell you that i want to talk to you so we can work everything out and you just totally ignore me wont respond wont answer or anything. I wanted you as a friend in my life and yet you didn't have the courtesy to even message me back or talk to me. Do you like enjoy doing this to someone i just don't get it. You have someone that basically do anything for you and cares about you so much as a friend or whatever but you just don't seem to care. I don't know where the person i fell in love with is but you really need to find him cuz he quite possibly was the single best person on the face of the planet, but the person you have become leaves alot to be desired. Ill never wish you any harm i care to much about you for that, I sincerely hope you life leads you to all the happiness and joy that you deserve.